My name is Jason Brooks and this is my blog.
The purpose of this blog is to help guide myself and others to what's next in life. I am a 30 year old man living in Los Angeles, California and trying my best to figure out, what's next for me. I have not living in Los Angeles for the last 13 years and now that I am back it feels so different then it ever did before. It looks the same it used to but it feels so empty and different because all the people I used to love and laugh with are no longer here. Most recently I spent the last 10 months living in Florence, Italy while earning my Masters Degree in Graphic Design at the Florence Design Academy.
I have a very limited scope of the grader of the world we live in but as each day passes and the more I explore the world, the more I realize how amazing every day truly is. Before I left for Italy, I had never ventured very far from my mothers home in the San Fernando Valley. I moved to San Diego for college when I was 18 and then I moved to San Francisco when I was 25 for the same reason. It is truly funny how age really does limit your scope of how you can see and understand the world. Now that I am 30 years old and earned my Masters, I seem to be more lost then I ever have been before. The question that appears on the tip of most peoples tongues are, "So Jason, What's Next?" Isn't that just the million dollar question?
I once thought that I knew every thing there was to know, thats when I was in love. The saddest part is that I couldn't have been anymore wrong about being in love. Still till this day I wonder, was I ever in love?, have I ever been loved? ( and not just by my mom), and does my life even matter?
I find that most people battle with these things more often then they are willing to share. Well world, here I am to tell you I am the voice that cannot sit still. I am the voice that will share the feelings you have also had, I am the voice that will speak when the silence is awkward, and I am the voice that will make things better someday.
This blog is for me but if it helps anyone along the way, fantastic. But please understand that I am trying to share my thoughts so that others can relate because I know there are lots of people going through the same things I am and wondering why we should go on to the next day. There are a million reasons to push on and one reason is usually enough to keep you pushing on to the next sunrise. I have thought many days that this world was not meant for me and that my time here would be short lived yet the irony of life being what it is, is that it never happens the way you think it will. I have no idea how long I will live here but I can tell you there have been many days where I didn't see a point to continue on.
So to the point of the blog, So what's next J?
I guess what's next is figuring that out. I need to dream again and hope to find what is important to me.
